I was going to visit him yesterday after work and I didnt. Part of my is really regretting that I didnt go to the hospital. I had visited him a lot of
times, but just didnt make it last night and it would have been my last chance. I heard from my Uncle (who did see him yesterday) that he was unable
to talk much and was having a very hard time breathing and wasnt doing well at all. He was always a very private person so Im hoping that he would
rather that I didnt see him at his worst, but its still hard to get past.
I hope youre resting well Pop.... I miss you already.
CR83 - 2-22-2007 at 11:23 AM
Honus, hang tough Dude. You and yours are in the Reed83 and Thorp Board thoughts/prayers.
Take Care Friend.BDx13 - 2-22-2007 at 11:33 AM
sorry to hear that, honus.
easy for me to say, but try not to sweat not being there last night.
you were there regularly the past week. he knows it, and he knows you care and love him.
awesome photo, by the way.DAK - 2-22-2007 at 11:39 AM
Sorry to hear that. I know it was hard as hell to see my grandmother in the hospital her last days.Muttley - 2-22-2007 at 11:42 AM
Having lost my grandmother a few months ago (she was 92) I feel your pain.
My condolences to you and the fam.JawnDiablo - 2-22-2007 at 12:06 PM
Sorry to hear that man.
Try and keep your head up.
Remember the good times.clevohardcore - 2-22-2007 at 12:31 PM
Sorry for your loss Honus.Jason the Magnificent - 2-22-2007 at 12:43 PM
Sorry to hear itVoodoobillyman - 2-22-2007 at 12:56 PM
My deepest condolences bro, we're all thinking of you and yours.Discipline - 2-22-2007 at 01:13 PM
Sorry for your loss.thedog - 2-22-2007 at 01:29 PM
sorry for your loss.
very cool photo.defstarsteve - 2-22-2007 at 02:18 PM
damn man sorry
I def know what you are going thru
keep your head upBKT - 2-22-2007 at 02:34 PM
I was at the hospital when my grandfather died, to be honest it may have been better for you this way. Sorry for the loss, hope you feel better soon.
MM.tireironsaint - 2-22-2007 at 02:39 PM
Sorry to hear that, Honus. I had a similar situation when my Grandfather passed several years back. He was about a 9 hour drive away and we knew he
was going downhill and a lot of the family was going there to be with him at the end, but he was in a hospice and not really coherent in any way. I
still feel guilty about not going, but there was just no way I could afford to take the time off to go and felt rather odd about going to wait for him
to die. I had to make the choice between going and seeing a man who didn't resemble himself in any way and was no longer aware of the world around him
or taking the time to go and be a part of his memorial. I chose the memorial and I think that IF there is some kind of other side, he'd be ok with
that.
Anyway, take care of yourself and realize that there's no way to know or control the timing of these things.
Also, the photo is fantastic, he looks like he was a great guy.Siczine.com - 2-22-2007 at 03:17 PM
Yeah, my thoughts go out to you Honus. And like MM said, it may have been better you didn't see him that day, be thankful for all the times you were
there, I'm sure he was.XnMeX - 2-22-2007 at 03:31 PM
I never new but 1 of my grandparents and I barely even knew her so I can't begin to understand the loss but stay strong.moron - 2-22-2007 at 03:41 PM
sorry to hear this news. take care of yourself.MyOwnWay - 2-22-2007 at 04:26 PM
Sorry Honus. And if you dont mind me saying so, I freaken love that pic of your Grandfather.DaveMoral - 2-22-2007 at 07:26 PM
Sorry to hear Josh.newbreedbrian - 2-22-2007 at 07:50 PM
shitty man, it's good you got to spend some of his last days with him. don't sweat the final moment thing and stay strong man.Spoiler - 2-22-2007 at 09:17 PM
sorry to hear man.....bless you and your familystateofdisgrace - 2-23-2007 at 03:10 AM
My sincere condolences, too.XHonusWagnerX - 2-25-2007 at 12:43 AM
I wanted to thank all you guys (and girls) for your best wishes and stuff. Especially the compliments on the picture of my grandfather. I love that
picture and have had it hanging by my bed for a couple of years now. Its just a great shot and reminds me of how cool he was! Im going to his house
tomorrow with my Uncle and my Grandmother. Im sure it will be tough, but it needs to be done and I definitly want to be there.
Other than that I just figured I would share a blog I wrote and posted on Myspace. It kind of says it all really.... Thanks again!
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I got a call this morning at 2:30 that my grandfather had died. He has been sick for the last few weeks, but it was still quite a shock even though
maybe it shouldnt have been. I had been visiting him quite regularly for the entire time he was in the hospital and I had originally planned on going
to see him yesterday when I got out of work, but I didnt and Im feeling pretty bad about the fact that I didnt go. There are lots of ways to look at
the situation and Im trying to view it from the most positive way that I can, but its hard. My grandfather has always been kind of private and not a
really social person, especially with his family. He owned and worked in a large scale family resturaunt for years and I think that all the time he
spent bartending there and being 'talkative and friendly' burned him out and when he was home he just didnt want to be chatty. He was never
affectionate at all either, but he showed that he cared about people in his own way. Anyway.... Im hoping that he wouldnt have wanted me to see him on
his last day because from what I've heard he wasnt doing very well and I dont think he would want me to remember him that way. Its still hard to shake
the thought that I missed my last chance to see him though.
Ive been sitting here at work thinking about some of the things I did with him that made me smile. All the times he would take me fishing and play
along with how excited I would be when I caught a 'sun fish' even though they were practicly jumping at the hook. How proud I was when he bought a
small row boat and put my name on the side of it. How he would pick the walnuts off the edge of the choclate cake I would get for desert everytime he
took me out to dinner at his resturaunt (even after he had sold it). The first time I went to dinner with him and my grandmother after they had gotten
divorced. It was a test to see if they could get along so that we could still all spend holidays together and it worked. The time that I had lost my
big plastic case full of matchbox cars and he went to Childworld by himself and bought me a case and all the cars to fill it and how happy I am that I
still have that case and those cars. Most recently, when I visited him on Christmas weekend and he told me a story about the day he got discharged
from the Navy and how WWII had just ended and him and a friend hitch hiked from SanFrancisco to Worcester, MA in just 3 days and how everyone that
picked them up paid for their meals and even offered them spending money.
I hope that he knows I love him. I didnt say it very much because I knew that it made him uncomfortable. There were many times that I wanted to give
him a hug, but had to settle for the handshake that he was more comfortable with. I made it a point to tell him that I loved him each time I left the
hospital after in addition to shaking his hand the best that he was able to do at the time.
He definitly wasnt doing very well in the hospital his last week and even though he wasnt perfect, he didnt deserve to suffer and I know that he didnt
want any sort of 'heroic acts' to keep him alive if it was his time to go. I just hope that where ever he is or whatever happens after you die that
hes okay. I know that I will be thinking about him a lot for the next few weeks. More so than I did before he was sick. I wish I had taken more time
to see him before he was sick, but like I already said, he just wasnt very social and didnt like having company all that often. *sigh....
Well.... where ever you are and whatever you see or feel or just know that I appreciated you while you were here, I miss you and I love you Pop.
You're with me now.... more than ever and we can shake on that.MyOwnWay - 2-25-2007 at 08:43 AM
My heart sank after reading that blog. What an amazing man. Thats awesome what he did for you and those matchbox cars.upyerbum - 2-25-2007 at 09:34 AM
I wish I could have had a relationship like that with my grandfather. Very nice eulogy Honus.XHonusWagnerX - 2-27-2007 at 08:48 AM
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Originally posted by upyerbum
Very nice eulogy Honus.
