so... an update.

GabeTexasGAMC - 4-21-2007 at 03:07 AM

just me randomly rambling.
So yeah...

As most of you know, i separated from my wife, back in Oct/Nov or so.
It was a VERY rough time for me. I pretty much didnt see anyone for a couple of months, didnt go out unless it was to work, ect.
My life was fucked. So i got over it little by little.
Work picked up, i found myself getting busy, doing conventions, and stuff.
Then i started to go out, mix and mingle with people. met a couple of really cool girls, wasnt looking for anything, just chilling.
I keep up with the ex, she tells me how we were just roomates longer than we were married.
I agreed, we sucked as spouses.
So about 2 weeks ago, I meet a girl.
Now thing is, i usually wouldnt even give it two thoughts, but this girl seemed to be NOT my type, and one of the most awesome people ive ever met.
So the first thing i say is "im not looking for a girlfriend, im not looking for anything but fun and friends"
She held me to it.
then after a couple of weeks, it started getting really comfortable.
Too comfortable.
She ended up being 90% awesome as hell, and 10% kinda ok/almost shitty. Somthing that most people can live with.
I think i deliberately sabotaged it myself, subconsciously....
She stood me up a couple of times, went out to drink with her friends.. Somthign i think is cool as hell.
But for some reason, this time i found the way she stood me up to be a little selfish.
All my friends were just super taken by her, "She awesome, dont fuck it u p!", "Shes too hot for you!" whatever. hahaha
But she forgot to meet me, because she was with a lesbo. On a bike! She ended up showing up at my house at 5am, kinda drunk and all up in my face about me acting weird.
It hurt just a little too much, something i wasnt looking to feel.
So we stopped talking, in a super uncomfortable way.
She works at my favorite local bar too, so that sucks even worse.
so this happened a couple of days ago...
So here I am thinking im over it. Fuck it right. Some random bitch, eh!
Nope. She just messages me.
And i feel like shit all over again, considering how awesome she was.
Fucking A dudes, I dont want to have to feel like this again. Even if it just a super tiny version of what I just went through.
Its like a thorn in the huge almost healed scar thats still there.
AAAAAAAH! Im drinkin... Just trying to relax, all the boys are away, so im venting.

BDx13 - 4-21-2007 at 07:44 AM

Quote:

Originally posted by GabeTexasGAMC
just me randomly rambling.
So yeah...

As most of you know, i separated from my wife, back in Oct/Nov or so.
It was a VERY rough time for me. I pretty much didnt see anyone for a couple of months, didnt go out unless it was to work, ect.
My life was fucked. So i got over it little by little.
Work picked up, i found myself getting busy, doing conventions, and stuff.
Then i started to go out, mix and mingle with people. met a couple of really cool girls, wasnt looking for anything, just chilling.
I keep up with the ex, she tells me how we were just roomates longer than we were married.
I agreed, we sucked as spouses.
So about 2 weeks ago, I meet a girl.
Now thing is, i usually wouldnt even give it two thoughts, but this girl seemed to be NOT my type, and one of the most awesome people ive ever met.
So the first thing i say is "im not looking for a girlfriend, im not looking for anything but fun and friends"
She held me to it.
then after a couple of weeks, it started getting really comfortable.
Too comfortable.
She ended up being 90% awesome as hell, and 10% kinda ok/almost shitty. Somthing that most people can live with.
I think i deliberately sabotaged it myself, subconsciously....
She stood me up a couple of times, went out to drink with her friends.. Somthign i think is cool as hell.
But for some reason, this time i found the way she stood me up to be a little selfish.
All my friends were just super taken by her, "She awesome, dont fuck it u p!", "Shes too hot for you!" whatever. hahaha
But she forgot to meet me, because she was with a lesbo. On a bike! She ended up showing up at my house at 5am, kinda drunk and all up in my face about me acting weird.
It hurt just a little too much, something i wasnt looking to feel.
So we stopped talking, in a super uncomfortable way.
She works at my favorite local bar too, so that sucks even worse.
so this happened a couple of days ago...
So here I am thinking im over it. Fuck it right. Some random bitch, eh!
Nope. She just messages me.
And i feel like shit all over again, considering how awesome she was.
Fucking A dudes, I dont want to have to feel like this again. Even if it just a super tiny version of what I just went through.
Its like a thorn in the huge almost healed scar thats still there.
AAAAAAAH! Im drinkin... Just trying to relax, all the boys are away, so im venting.

best post in months.

hang in there gabe. remember, love bites, love bleeds, it brings you to your knees.

MyOwnWay - 4-21-2007 at 11:54 AM

Quote:

Originally posted by BD

love bites, love bleeds, it brings you to your knees.

If Big D quoting Def Leppard doesnt make you smile, nothing will :cool:

GabeTexasGAMC - 4-21-2007 at 01:32 PM

dudes, i was pretty trashed after drinking 3 quarts of the high life!
And i was venting.
Pretty cool... i thought i had made more of an ass of myself!
HAHA!

tireironsaint - 4-21-2007 at 05:58 PM

Hold fast Gabe, nothin' fucks up a Grown Man more than a woman. I know this truth all too well.

JawnDiablo - 4-21-2007 at 06:42 PM

women can make the strongest man weaken.
trust me
i speak from experience

RomanticViolence - 4-21-2007 at 09:11 PM

WOMEN SUCK!!!

moforn - 4-22-2007 at 02:17 AM

Quote:

Originally posted by BD

hang in there gabe. remember, love bites, love bleeds, it brings you to your knees.

Also, it's like a stove... it burns you when it's hot (love hurts, oh oh, love hurts), and as if that's not enough it's also like a cloud- it holds a lot of rain.

GabeTexasGAMC - 4-22-2007 at 11:59 AM

yeah man. shits all over the place.
She called me last night, wondering why i havent called her!
WTF!

ENDERA.x - 4-22-2007 at 12:36 PM

In most of my time and relations and observing other peoples relations. Women are just selfish creatures. If theres nothing it it for them, they won't do it. In general I find them to be just not decent human beings. Hence why they are often referred to as "bitches."

These generalizations time and time again prove me right on that subject. So fuck em. Not saying 99.9% are, but at least 98.9% are.

Just how they are made. Plain and simple. Can't deny it.
We have to learn how to deal with it, and it's difficult. Many of them even know it.

Of course though, one must observe other cultures. If you go to Europe you'll find that the women are a totally different breed of human being. And it's ALOT better than north american broads.

DaveMoral - 4-22-2007 at 01:53 PM

Don't know much in this department as my only serious relationship has been my wife of 6.5 years and we been together for 7 years. All the rest were crushes that didn't pan out, or chicks that fucked me over royally in very short order. I found a winner and stuck with her(even though I damn near fucked it all up numerous times).

Don't know what to say but that you can go a couple different ways... see what's up and if she would be interested in being a little more serious than just being able to stand you up for a lesbo on a bike OR just let it go and tell her you're not able to deal with it right now dude. This is one of those areas where dudes pretend not to feel anything alot of the time because they'd feel like less of a man, but damned if I'm less of a man for heartache. This is where country music comes in...

GabeTexasGAMC - 4-22-2007 at 11:45 PM

its cool.
I dont pretend not to be hurt. Fuck the macho shit.
And I pretty much told her "No Thanks!"
hahaha

Discipline - 4-23-2007 at 01:06 AM

Hope you at least got a rusty trombone out of the deal.

GabeTexasGAMC - 4-23-2007 at 01:58 AM

hahah just about.
She wasnt that great either.
OOOH!

Oh and I turn 30 today.
What a fucking week.

Discipline - 4-23-2007 at 02:19 AM

Happy birthday you crazy bastard.

RomanticViolence - 4-23-2007 at 08:46 AM

Happy birthday gabe!

Jason the Magnificent - 4-23-2007 at 12:04 PM

"Women are the devil."
-Robert Plant

GabeTexasGAMC - 4-23-2007 at 01:21 PM

hahaha yay!
Shes here again.
And ive been blowing her off, trying to make her go home.
Nope.
I dont mind her really, i just wish she didnt suck as a girl.