XnMeX
Posting Freak
Posts: 3839
Registered: 4-11-2004
Location: Dirty Dover, NH
Member Is Offline
|
|
Feeling like shit...
Time to vent though I know people have it worse than me, just having one of those weeks and thought I would sit at the neighborhood bar (Thorp Board)
and vent. Just feeling blah and have nothing going for me outside of my fiance. Temp job in an office when I want somthing more physical, I am
turning 30 in February and have accomplished nothing, no job prospects that I like, no family (yet), and time is once again in short supply where it
was plentifull on unemployment and I honestly don't know which is worse. I just see friends with better jobs, 2 kids deep, etc and look at myself and
see nothing. On the kinda possitive but negative end... I feel like I have "given" myself a second chance with the weight loss surgery but am not
taking advantage of it. I have some things in mind but just need to "shit or get off the pot" in the immortal words of Randal Graves.
Not really looking for input, just wanted to vent.
One thing I need to do is improve my math skills as funny as that sounds. I tried getting into the Portsmouth Naval Shipyard aprentice program which
is THE program to get into around here and I passed the testing but was on the lower end of the passing "class" and I know it is from my math skills.
I need to improve my decimal and fraction math and take the test this coming year. I plan on taking advantage of down time here at work by learning
these skills, just need to find the resources now.
|
|
|
XHonusWagnerX
Moderator
Posts: 12509
Registered: 7-14-2005
Location: pawtucket
Member Is Offline
Mood: hadDCore
|
|
I guess all anyone can say is hang in there. You do have it better (as do lots of us) then a lot of other people. All though, that being said, I
totally feel what youre saying.
I pretty much hate my job and would quit to make less money if I could find a job I liked, but I dont think that there is a job I would like.
You've got some good friends which helps a lot. I actually just kinda got back together with some friends that I had a falling out with (G & 3) and
its been nice. Its hard because they are both married with kids and dont have time to do that much, but at least they are around a little.
I want to play music, but dont have time. I wish I could have tried out for Refuse Resist when they needed a bass player, but with night time
practices in Boston I dont have time/energy to do that and get to work on time the next day. Theres also the problem of taking days off every few
weeks for a long weekend of shows etc. So I'm stuck.... gotta work I guess.
The weight thing is huge (no pun intended) and you are very lucky and I'm pretty psyched that you are doing as well as you are. I wish I could get
something like that done because I just dont have the mental energy or whatever it takes to get started. If I could get a good jump start I think I
could keep it going, but being that I dont drink or do any "drugs"... food is my drug of choice. I get bummed, depressed, pissed and I wanna eat a
comfort food (which is never good for you!).
Sorry that was actually more of a downer than I wanted it to be.
Just hang in there!!!
| Quote: | Originally posted by REV.PAULIE
HONUS-as much as i can't stand a great deal of what you really like (for my own reasons that i would never hold,nor impose,against you),YOU FUCKING
RULE!
YOU,HONUS,IS WHAT MAKES THE "EDGE" COOL.
YOUR FRIEND,
PAULIE |
check out my post contributions at www.VinylNoize.com
|
|
|
BKT
Posting Freak
Posts: 2476
Registered: 7-6-2004
Location: Canada
Member Is Offline
|
|
One thing I can say is that you would be amazed at what time can do. 3 years ago I lived in the city and lived like a fucking fool. My career was ok,
but it had taken back seat to my bullshit to be honest. HOw the hell I made it through those days without ending up in jail or dead I will never know.
Fighting, drinking, sluts, total disregard for anything at all really and complete reckless behavior.
Fast forward 3 years, I have a house a dog and I am married now. My career is amazing and I have even been able to start up a second one. if anyone 3
years ago had told me I would be where I am today I would have laughed in their face. You never know what life may have for you around the corner and
you always have to be on guard so you don't fuck it up when it arrives.
Not sure if this helps you at all, but figured I would try anyway.
Keep your chin up brother.
MM.
|
|
|
DaveMoral
Posting Freak
Posts: 4334
Registered: 1-24-2006
Location: Ardmore PA
Member Is Offline
|
|
Yeah, hang in there is all I can say dude. I don't have much to vent about here, and I guess the saying... for all of us... "the wise man counts his
blessings, the fool counts his problems" should apply. I've got some issues, not much I want to talk about publicly. Mostly just bitching about my
work situation and because of that being stuck in my in-laws basement and my alcoholic brother-in-law just moved in on top of it all. The place is
crowded enough. Fortunately he spends his nights playing online poker and some other bullshit and his days sleeping.
As always, just the act of being married and having a kid is challenging... but that's more a blessing than anything else even if it's a frustration
from time to time.
Also, MM... good to hear about how your life has turned around over the last 3 years.
|
|
|
SS76
Posting Freak
Posts: 1586
Registered: 5-6-2008
Location: CT
Member Is Offline
Mood: RAMALLAH
|
|
We're not here for a long time, we're here for a good time.
Silence is golden but violence is platinum. |
|
|
XnMeX
Posting Freak
Posts: 3839
Registered: 4-11-2004
Location: Dirty Dover, NH
Member Is Offline
|
|
I just need to figure out my game plan of what I want to do and set it in motion.
|
|
|
newbreedbrian
Posting Freak
Posts: 2616
Registered: 9-2-2004
Location: Hell
Member Is Offline
Mood: doc watson
|
|
| Quote: | Originally posted by XnMeX
I just need to figure out my game plan of what I want to do and set it in motion. |
It really is as simple as that. As cliche as it might sound, "the journey of a thousand miles begins with one step" is entirely true.
I can fully relate to not liking where you're at in life. I was at that point a couple years ago. I absolutely hated my job and the whole industry I
was in. I saved my ass off and went back to school. I had to do some review on my own for my math as well to get in the dockyard. I hadn't done a lot
of that stuff in almost 15 years. Easy? Hell no. You know what though? Entirely worth it.
The very existence of flamethrowers proves that sometime, somewhere, someone said to themselves, ?You know, I want to set those people over there on
fire, but I?m just not close enough to get the job done.? George Carlin
|
|
|
XnMeX
Posting Freak
Posts: 3839
Registered: 4-11-2004
Location: Dirty Dover, NH
Member Is Offline
|
|
Been working on Decimals today, it sounds sad. lol I think I have everything down within decimals except I haven't tackled division yet. Math was
always a weak point of mine. Decimals to fractions and vice versa will be the tricky part but I found a good online site to figure it all out. I
have plenty of time to sharpen my skills before the exam. I just know that they way they higher is the top percentile gets hired on first, makes
sense. So that means... My game plan is to make sure I am in that top percentile.
|
|
|
newbreedbrian
Posting Freak
Posts: 2616
Registered: 9-2-2004
Location: Hell
Member Is Offline
Mood: doc watson
|
|
Sounds like a good goal to shoot for. I had the exact same thought going back to school. You're right, they do take the people with the best marks
first. Once again, it was worth it. Best of luck to ya Monty.
The very existence of flamethrowers proves that sometime, somewhere, someone said to themselves, ?You know, I want to set those people over there on
fire, but I?m just not close enough to get the job done.? George Carlin
|
|
|
XnMeX
Posting Freak
Posts: 3839
Registered: 4-11-2004
Location: Dirty Dover, NH
Member Is Offline
|
|
Apprentices get paid $18.00+ an hour for the 4 years while learning their trade. Good money and learning a trade. Sounds good to me.
|
|
|
newbreedbrian
Posting Freak
Posts: 2616
Registered: 9-2-2004
Location: Hell
Member Is Offline
Mood: doc watson
|
|
It is 
The very existence of flamethrowers proves that sometime, somewhere, someone said to themselves, ?You know, I want to set those people over there on
fire, but I?m just not close enough to get the job done.? George Carlin
|
|
|
XHonusWagnerX
Moderator
Posts: 12509
Registered: 7-14-2005
Location: pawtucket
Member Is Offline
Mood: hadDCore
|
|
what sites are you using?
| Quote: | Originally posted by REV.PAULIE
HONUS-as much as i can't stand a great deal of what you really like (for my own reasons that i would never hold,nor impose,against you),YOU FUCKING
RULE!
YOU,HONUS,IS WHAT MAKES THE "EDGE" COOL.
YOUR FRIEND,
PAULIE |
check out my post contributions at www.VinylNoize.com
|
|
|
mattybar
Senior Member
Posts: 805
Registered: 1-3-2008
Location: South London, UK
Member Is Offline
|
|
i was kinda down on my luck for a few years and then took up kung fu and boxing and started dabbling in a couple of the martial arts.
stuck with the boxing and kung fu and it's made me a lot happier with myself and made it easier to focus on what i want as opposed to just coasting
along, working, getting wasted every week etc etc
that's all i can offer really.
i'd like to go back to school too.
|
|
|
![[*]](images/thorp/default_icon.gif){kind=icon}
